Monday, April 4, 2011

Indulgent bout of homesickness

I'm tired today.

Not just body tired; I got plenty of sleep last night, but soul-tired. Soul tired is worse than body tired. Generally, I haven't been as home sick this semester; I've felt much more comfortable and confident than last semester. But this weekend has been a draining one, so today you're going to have to indulge me.

I miss my country. I miss my family. I miss my friends. I miss my church. And yet the prospect of talking to anyone from home seems a bit daunting at the moment.

I miss having a room in which no one touches my things. I miss not being ordered to eat always more at meal times. I miss doing my school work in English. I miss having a gym that I can use for free. I miss baking. I miss doing my grocery shopping. I miss hot showers.

I miss last minute meetings in Chester's place. I miss walking across the quad to class. I miss trips to Boston. I miss studying in that chair in the library. I miss the rain.

Part of me feels like I'm very silly to miss the states right now. I've got a lot of great things going here. Undoubtedly when I go back and have a bad day there I will remember them all.


  1. I can understand how you feel:( I'm sorry you're homesick!

    So what exactly are you studying while abroad? Tell me a bit about yourself!

  2. I know exactly what that feels like.

    And it sucks.

    So I hope you find something there that brings you peace.


  3. Aww....hang in there, girl.... *hugs*

  4. I hope today was a better day...they usually follow the down days in my world. Home is home is home and anywhere else is visiting...not the same. Eat some chocolate! Works for me! Hope it works for you!

  5. The States miss you too! We'll still be here to come home to when you're done. Everyone is entitled to a little indulgent homesickness on occassion. The good news is that it will pass...

    Sh*t. I just saw the no hot showers thing. You need to come home IMMEDIATELY. :)

  6. Funny, because I miss Abroad so bad right now... Here I am, wishing I was where you are, and there you are, wishing you were where I am.

    Let's trade.

    But a year from now you'll be ready to hop a plane and fly back, too :-)

  7. I understand what you feel, I been in that shoes so I promised my self to make sure to visit my family back home..they are the only reason of my for you..goodluck!